My little princess has really grown. I decided not to post until it had been 6 months so I could really absorb all that happened and ruminate about it alone.
I would NEVER change my choice to give birth to Kellianne at home. I enjoyed my homebirth, I truly did. There were some unexpected things that I wish I’d been aware of before that day, but never thought I needed to ask. I never thought I would have to ask that my birth remain a private matter. I didn’t expect to send my children away and welcome the children of others. In the moment, I didn’t want to be upset and just kind of went with it. But, I have pondered about that many times. It was definitely best not to have my kids here with my midwife’s child. I would not want myself, or her, tending to the needs of children and their squabbles.
I think I just should have shopped around a bit more. I don’t think our compatability went into the hiring of her as much as her price did. It was an amazing price. If I had to choose again, I would have figured out a way to come up with a few more hundred dollars to pay for who I thought was the right midwife.
In the end, everything turned out well. I have a healthy, happy, sweet girl. She is still nursing and doing a great job. She’s started eating solid foods recently as well.
Want to see a recent pic??
I am still growing every day as a mother. I am learning tons from my children and am sooo appreciative of them. Will there be a number 4??? Only time will tell, but 3 is definitely a handful.
